I am already 33.
It is super easy to say that number just in once. Honestly, I have never imagined myself the day when I will step into the 33rd chapter of my life book! But, it happened eventually. That day is already standing in the middle of my 30s.
How do I feel now? Though, I have never asked that to myself before. Since life is going on its way every day. And after a long time, I have turned my life into simply a one-day routine.
Well, I can’t believe that I have already closed these 33 chapters of my life book. As if I have just started listing these in yesterday’s evening time. How those chapters of mine passed away so fast!
And now, taking a deep breath, I hope that the next chapters will get into more well-organized, and self-promising format it has ever been. At some point, I started to mumble myself “hey, life is not actually bad”. Well, the bad news is that I have run out of those 33 life chapters of mine…
Thirty-three is not a bad number actually. It is the sequence of integer numbers starting and finishing between 30 and 40. That’s how mathematically we have structured so far. Whenever I do the maths with such sequential counts, I literarily start to look again and examine learning cycles at a young age.
For instance, children are never getting bored with doing some failed performance multiple times. Because all they care at that moment of time is to master whatever they accomplish. And it’s nothing to do with the outcome of that performance; either to succeed or fail the next round.
Some age, others mature — Sean Connery
If you desperately listen to any motivated mathematician, you will end up with a feeling that any number sequence between the 30s & 40s is actually the preparatory digits for stepping into the next repeating phase: 50s & 60s…
When I list those 33 chapters of mine, all I know that I can’t exchange them with the untouched ones out there. And I can not even replace them with the new ones. That is the rule of life we are all living; breathing and passionately burning with daily “must-to-do” tasks that may be in the list of “list-to-do” in some other people.
And I am not here in the mood of sharing with you — “hey look, I am posting my 33 life rules” what I have learned so far. Well, I am quite sure that there are dozens of such mediocre numbered lessons from others who are in the list of H. sapiens community.
As time passes, I start to come up with one simple fact of my life. Despite the sense of feeling “getting old”, I am more alert on life rules than any times of up to date life journey. As if it is starting from the beginning…
Slowly by dropping my feelings into text, I start to get to the point of — “life starts after the 40s, 50s, 60s, or even more interestingly 70s”.
In my opinion, that sense of feeling stays young and healthy all the time comes from the eternity that exists all the time within us. Everybody wants to live longer. Stay young and healthy. Each. Every. Day.
Looking back at my 33 years of life journey, all these short fragments of my life remind me of different experiences. I don’t complain about my life, nor my current condition. Instead, I am proud of what I have done in the past, and what I am doing currently.
There is no happier person than a truly thankful, content person — Joyce Meyer
I am so proud that I had multiple opportunities to attain what I had to get. I am proud of my parents and relatives. For their kindness and affection during my childhood.
I thank the Creator for providing me with such enormous opportunities on the way of my life journey. Possibly, not everybody may have had a happy start. And alongside with a happy ending. You may never know…
Now I know what to do next. I will continue in my path, lighting the forehead of my peers and students. I am not afraid of tomorrow’s waves. All I believe is that every wave I face brings a challenge for my better days.
Who knows what the next tide brings. I have to use my time efficiently. Be prepared for tomorrow, and never be ashamed of my past.
I should never feel sorry for my personality also. I am who I am. And I do what is efficiently for me. That is the thing that I have to do. Take care of my responsibilities and be ready for the next tight.
And I also know that things will be awaiting me in tomorrow’s days. Things that will be the building blocks for my next life chapters. I must not forget them, and keep alive all the time.
The countdown for 34 already has been started. Actually, the time has already initiated its point scale on 34 from the first moments of 33. As they say that “your current reflects your past”.
After 33, I am on my way of becoming 34 every day and every time. And I do not compare myself with others. Life is not black and white. It’s more than that.
Life isn’t black and white. It’s a million gray areas, don’t you find? — Ridley Scott
There are no strict rules. That is why do not try to keep the same pace as everybody. Try different paths. Although it is always hard to keep that alive, people usually care about how you bring your lifeboat to the shore.
Things that I face in the middle of a tedious journey do not concern others. Simply people do not care. They do not want to care actually. Instead, people want to see what they want to see; people listen what they desire to listen!
To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wildflower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour.
Last but not least, I see myself no more some naughty boy who is chasing after his own kite which is flying somewhere else. All I can say to myself is to know yourself and praise your differences. Your uniqueness…
Thanks a lot for being with my 33rd number. I hope to see you in my next round…